My First Attempt at POETRY...

OK...OK...OK......I am no Shakespeare, nor am I Ahmed Shawqi...but hey I always loved to read poetry but never had the courage of actually writing one....but this semester I decided to take a poetry course as an elective......I begged all my friends to join me (ya, I wanted support) but they seemed far away from interested in this class....and so far things are going fine.... the teacher is a nice crazy old lady, probably the American version of Um S3eed, and as my first assignment I was given the task of writing a poem....I wanted to share this one with you guys hopefully you'll like it.....remember to praise it if you like and give me a constructive criticism if you don't;)

A Journey Called Life

As I sit collecting my thoughts about everything
It seems that life has walked for miles
But moved only a few steps forward

No idea about how much more will I walk
But there is always a day after night
And remaining hope insight

But unlike others I won’t run away
I had my share of happiness, and
For sorrows I’m going to stay

Just when you thought that the battle had been won
You discover that the war has just begun
Keep on fighting is what we all ought to do
Until glory comes along and rewards you

Ramadan So far.....

So here I'am ...wanna wish you all a little late Happy Ramadan...its been a good week so far....I'm not progressing on any Quran readings-unfortunately-but I am trying to go to the taraweeh prayers on a daily basis....on a personal note I'm trying to clear my body mind and soul from all the negativity....I wanna forgive them all....everyone who has ever done any wrong to me.....and I mean each and every word of what I just said....I'm too tired holding grudges against people and basically I feel this is the best time of the Year to let go of everything you want to leave behind...

A day before Ramadan we threw a party for a close friend of mine J....it was a very good atmosphere...for a while things were very peaceful between me and some of my other friends...we tried to stretch the moment for as far as we could...and it was a very memorable party, especially for someone like me who is not a party animal AT-ALL.

Back to Being In Ramadan...I was going through some shows to at least see how is the Arabic media doing...and to my surprise I did find this year much better than the previous one...there were some people who acknowledged the fact that these channels are being broadcasted in a Muslim land and during the most important month of the year (no I'm not talking about the likes of Melody, I don't think they'll ever know that)...But one of the most stupid shows were the candid cameras and the Arabic Version(s) of Punk'd....I mean seriously are they plain stupid or just paid to do that....how many times do they have repeat the tricks for celebrities and people to know that they are being duped, i mean this time they didn't even change the pranksters (even with the cheap make-up they are recognizeble)....what??!!!......do they still expect me to believe that.....pleeeeease.....I'm much smarter than that....

And that's prestty much it.....hopefully I'll be able to updade without Cee and Dee reminding me to do so..lol...see ya all soon.

BacK to BlaCk

Hey Everyone....My apologies for not being able to update much recently....I've been really busy preparing for the university....I am or at least was very excited about going back to school....it is my final year...I'm a senior...I wanna live each and every moment of this year.....well that was how I felt last week....but I'm not sure how I feel about it anymore....

All my friends and former class-mates are separated from one another physically as well as emotionally....all of us seem to have a problem with someone for some reason and it is really sad...some of my closest friends avoided talking alot to me on the first day of Uni., and I was devastated by their attitude (I have no idea why...maybe I intimidate people..lol)....the classes are so far so good...but I can't feel comfortable in any of them..in fact I felt way more comfortable and excited in my first year(despite being in a new place with new people) than my forth year (where I know almost everyone)...shouldn't like I be more relaxed and at ease with everything???!!!!

But again I may have expected a little too much from everything and everyone.....I mean I tried to be there for some people when they need me...but when my turn came everyone simply ran away....I'm learning to do things and not remember them and not expect people to turn out like me....the feeling of disappointment is way to harsh in that scenario....

Such conflicted feelings have developed from such incidents...and as I was chatting with one of my closest friends, she said to me " I can't live in a facade....I can't put on a happy face while talking to a person I hate".....and I absolutely understand her point coz she is someone who is honest not only to people but herself as well...and trust me I would do the same...I did that in my past...but this time I don't want it to end on a bad note...after all you are by how people know and remember you....and life is too short to hold any grudges....so hopefully I'll be able to get through this year and graduate with peace and without my current feelings of bitterness towards certain people...

P.S. Cancerian...thanks for reminding me of my blog...she said "I need a new post" and I though she needed some post-it note...lol...she literally had to repeat herself a couple of times until I understood what she meant..hehehe