The difference between you and me...

You always belonged somewhere
and I never belonged anywhere
for you definitions were ready
but for me I was lost,
between the riddle of words
Fidding-in was always a privilege for you
as for me; I was shown the exit sign all the time
you turned-down all that you have
and refused to be a part of it
while I still long for it
And that is basically,
the difference between you and me.

men are from mars women are from venus

For the last one week I was working at the Dubai International Film Festival. The environment allowed me to mingle with local boys the way I wouldn't normally and to my surprise I was up for a big cultural shock. As a part of a silly game known as "truth or dare" I was really not daring to hear the truth.

I would not like to go into details about what happened because I don't think that any good can come out of mentioning of such experiences and sinful activities. What I was really shocked about is that men were not stepping up to take the responsibilities and be men for once. Everything wrong is done by a woman...she is the one who seduces....she is the one who cheapens herself...she is the one that starts flirting...she is the one that approaches...OK so what?

I have guys approach me all the time but that doesn't mean I say YES to them....those are really lame excuses. Don't blame on the women when you guys start using them as chess pawns on simple dating scenes or those on the political or religious scenes. Men have to understand that she is a living, breathing human being....can they ever get that??? Can they ever get the fact that women are their mothers, sisters, future wives and daughters carved into their hearts and minds?

Women have to be virgins, while for men it's OK to experiment around is the thought that I got out of their heads....but how can that be right? Isn't that double standard? Doesn't my religion state clearly that I would be standing before god with all my deeds just like any other man on this earth? Then how can you say such things and bring me and my hopes down???!!! How can you twist the word of god so easily with your twisted mentalities and ideas?

I left the circle of conversation hurt and broken hearted praying to god in my heart to bless me with someone who considers a woman equal to him almost everything but doesn't forget that he's there for the purpose of loving, caring, honoring and protecting her.....after all she's a woman.

P.S. Despite the mention of religion in this post, it has nothing to do with nurturing such mentalities as MALE CHAUVINIST PIGS exist everywhere and anywhere.

Life so far...

So here I am....after a long time..finding my way back to writing and blogging...so much has happened since my last post....I got graduated, went on a long holiday and came back to find that things don't remain the same as you left them.

I haven't entered the professional world as of yet; not because of lack of offers but the lack of the right ones. I'm hoping to start working by the start of the new year and Inshallah it will be Worth the wait. One thing about waiting is that people always end-up taking the wrong way. Why is she not hired? Are her parents forcing her to do that? Did she end-up with a bad GPA? and there are many other twisted questions I can write down but it will seriously end up being a waste of space for this post.

What's wrong with waiting??? My parents don't mind it, and It's much better than being in a bad work environment that may ruin you forever professionally and give you scars that you will carry to all the good places you move to later on in life. Or a job that you can never do justice to simply because you are more worried about the traffic and concerned about arriving on time and leaving ahead of it simply to not have to get stuck in traffic. But it isn't about the pressure of me finding a job...in fact it's just the beginning, cause once you find a job I'm sure they're gonna be back to pressure me to find a husband....and after finding one it's the pressure to have babies and the pressure keeps going on and on and on as the vicious cycle continues.

I try not to let them get through to me but I do admit that there are moments of weakness where you can't help but simply give in, after all you're no angel....you're simply a human.
I thought of this phase of my life way ahead...fearing the unknown despite knowing what you want, but as you all may know life doesn't always go the way you plan for it and all we can do is keep the smile and the spirit alive.....